Day 32

Today is Mari's birthday so I'm not going to spend the morning talking about the negative things in my life. Instead I'm going to only talk about the positives.

I cleaned up Matt's office last night and it is a remarkable change. Funny how a simple $30 bookshelf changes things. My friend Laura wanted to buy the same bookshelf, but didn't because it's a two person lift. I did because of that!

I spent the night drinking wine and cleaning up his catastrophe of a room. I'm excited for him to get home and see it!

It's so cold right now I love it. It's about 50 and just cold enough where a sweater sounds perfect, but a coat would be too much. I've been thinking about my outfit all day. I bought myself new shoes yesterday as a gift for doing so much work in the office. They were $20 so I thought it was worth it.

Charlie is snuggled up all warm under a blanket next to me and I have my coffee sitting next to me. Behind me is the quilt for the Ruckdashels that I am nearly finished with. The house is almost perfectly clean other than the stack of boxes near the door from our online purchases and Matt's office fiasco. I'm excited to be able to afford to build our own house so he can have his own office that I can shut him in and have a cleaner go in there and organize it once a month. He's such a messy person! It will be great to have him home again - he's been gone since Wednesday. I am also just so thankful that it's Friday! Our friend Phil is coming over to bake apple pies tonight which will be fantastic.

I'm currently stalling so I don't disturb sir charles :)

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