100 Days

Today is Mari's birthday so I'm not going to spend the morning talking about the negative things in my life. Instead I'm going to only talk about the positives. I cleaned up Matt's office last night and it is a remarkable change. Funny how a simple $30 bookshelf changes things. My friend Laura wanted to buy the same bookshelf, but didn't because it's a two person lift. I did because of that! I spent the night drinking wine and cleaning up his catastrophe of a room. I'm excited for him to get home and see it! It's so cold right now I love it. It's about 50 and just cold enough where a sweater sounds perfect, but a coat would be too much. I've been thinking about my outfit all day. I bought myself new shoes yesterday as a gift for doing so much work in the office. They were $20 so I thought it was worth it. Charlie is snuggled up all warm under a blanket next to me and I have my coffee sitting next to me. Behind me is the quilt for the Ruck...

I slept in yesterday. It was a rough start and didn't get much better. Work was a magnificent catastrophe full of letdowns and fires to be put out. I am really getting better at this job but still make stupid mistakes. I suppose it will come with time. It's frustrating to be the only one making these mistakes.  I did talk to Laura last night for quite awhile though. That was so lovely. It was after I had like two glasses of wine though so I kind of rambled on and on and on. I think she's having a hard time with work right now and I'm having a hard time figuring out how to support her.  Matt on the other hand is killing it at work. He has a big week this week and is talking about his product in front of a ton of people today or tomorrow. I think he's been rather stressed out about it but not in the same way. I think he's over preparing so he has nothing out of line. I've tried to stay out of his way and let him work. He's going to be gone for the next...

Well I didn't workout again today. I chose snuggling with Matt and Charlie over it. I can feel my legs getting fatter.... This weekend was pretty enjoyable. Friday we got some news that Matt was going to have his guarantee a bit longer than expected. That'll allow us to be more comfortable for the foreseeable future. To celebrate he made sushi and we drank a bottle of wine Friday night. I think we were in bed by 11? We got up early on Saturday and went to the market. The rest of the day was super lazy full of reading, movies and quilting. Saturday night we went to his financial advisor's client appreciation night in a barn. It was like every Nebraska wedding reception, Funeral, or family reunion I have ever been to. Everyone was in blue jeans and flannel button ups. It was hilarious. Yesterday we didn't do a damn thing. I didn't even put on pants. It was another lazy day full of movies, books, quilting and carbs. Unfortunately it was a beautiful day and we tot...

Well yesterday was an eventful day. Matt put the final touches on us getting our apartment. I get to check it out the first week of October. We move hopefully between November 21st and November 30th.  It was Katie's birthday.  And I started thinking about anything that we need to plan to do our October reception and Thanksgiving.  I think for Thanksgiving we're going to cook everything over here for the most part then take it over to Brigette and Ryan's for final touches. This means the turkey to the pies have to come out of my little kitchen.  I think I'm going to do a turkey, Scalloped Potatoes, Stuffing made from old bread not from a box, green bean casserole, (Rucks are making a corn casserole and cranberries), croissants, veggie plate, salad, apple pie, and a pumpkin pie. That should be enough.... As for October all I really need to do is call Ratio and confirm that their outside area is available. This and maybe make our event start at 2 because noon s...

Things I want in a job Creativity A drive for my current position Ability to see my impact Career Stability Some Travel Company Culture Business Professional Forward thinking Collaboration with independent work A team Big picture with details involved Spontaneity Constructive Challenges Public Speaking Something Interesting Something improving the world  Things I don't want in a job Low Compensation throughout and at the end of the career, I want to eventually make money Same thing every day/monotony Ability to leave work at work Medicine, more ppwk than relationships Teaching, more red tape than relationships Sales, money doesn't drive me - relationships do Processing, checking boxes and approving vs creating/doing HR, more red tape and ppwk than relationships Only details with an eye on the big picture Desk Job pushing papers My Skills, talents and strengths  Organization Design Collaboration Leadership Time Management Good with technology Project Management Creativit...

Things I want in a job Creativity A drive for my current position Ability to see my impact  Career Stability  Some Travel Company Culture Business Professional Forward thinking Collaboration with independent work  A team Big picture with details involved Spontaneity  Constructive Challenges  Public Speaking Something Interesting Things I don't want in a job Low Compensation  Same thing every day/monotony  Ability to leave work at work Medicine  Teaching Sales Processing Only details with an eye on the big picture Desk Job pushing papers My Skills, talents and strengths  Organization Design Collaboration Leadership Time Management Good with technology My Weaknesses and Shortcomings Working to get things done Disregard for rules Nitpicky details  Public Speaking Why do I work?

This weekend was lovely. Friday night our friend Phil came over and we cooked a fantastic dinner. Him and Matt made a wonderful steak with a side of scallops and Tuna. For sides we had sauteed mushrooms, wilted spinach, and home fries. I made myself a veggie burger and it was fantastic. The only thing that wasn't amazing was I don't always know how to handle Phil. When it's just Matt and Phil he drives me nuts. They constantly talk over me and explain what they're talking about. It's super annoying. I was a little short that night.  Saturday was productive. I cleaned all of our closets out and organized all of our stuff so we no longer have multiple little piles all over the house which is great. We then went out to the street festival with Phil. It was really weird. It was a balloon/mixed media performance show and I couldn't get into it. Afterwards we went to a few bars and our friend Steve showed up. Phil being Phil didn't really improve much. I had two...

Yesterday I chose to sleep in and pick up the house instead of blogging. I really need to get better about cleaning before I go to bed instead of just going to bet. If I were to write john a letter right now it'd say: John, I hope your first week in scotland was magnificent! I can't believe it's been a week and you're there. I hope you're enjoying yourself and that you and Alex are having a wonderful time. I wanted to bring up the event last Friday night. I know as a family we don't always share our feelings in this capacity, but I feel like I need to share mine. You are under no obligation to read this, but I really hope you do. Last Friday was the second time you have yelled at me over me acting non-maliciously in a way that you didn't like. Both times have scarred our relationship. Both times you haven't said you were sorry without prompting. It won't happen again. Last time we were in this situation I was not yet a part of this family...

I missed yesterday. I didn't have anything new to report so I spent my morning reading my harry potter book instead. Monday was a normal day that ended with me coming home to a dirty house and uploading pictures till eleven. I slept like a rock. Yesterday wasn't my favorite day. Work wasn't the best to start off with. I'm really not enjoying the part of my job where everyone makes me feel like I'm doing everything wrong when I'm doing 99% of things right. It's really difficult to feel like you're being tested on that 1% and are failing miserably. We then went over to Bridgette and Ryan's house and it was so much better. I really am thankful we're friends with them. I finished my night with Jessie texting me a lot of irrational things that were awful updates on her life that I couldn't help with at all. So bad day. I hope today is better...

Holy moly i'm tired. This weekend we went to Toronto and hungout with Matt's family. It was a good weekend overall although John had a freak out on me. I really want to talk to him about it, but I fear it's going to cause more problems than is needed. Also, I'm still really angry about it and never write the right things under this circumstance. After friday night - the john freakout night - John and Alex left for Scotland and Gail and Steve left. Troy, Matt and I explored Toronto and walked over eight miles. We met up with my friend Stephanie and collected the girl from the bar we were drinking at and had a wonderful day! Yesterday was a bit of a struggle. We were incredibly hungover. I actually felt worse on Saturday, but Troy convinced me to drink two drinks. Worked like a charm. I had to force them down and talk myself out of puking after every drink, but I felt amazing!  Now to get through today... 

So I'm trying bagbalm on my face at night since it's making Vanessa's skin so beautiful. It's making me break out! I'm giving it a month to see what the difference is but if it constantly makes me break out I don't want to be using it. I've also moved back to Origins and my face FEELS better so that's good. I can't wait for the products to do their job and make my face stop breaking out. It's so frustrating re-figuring out what products do and do not work when you've moved to a different climate, but here we are. In other news we might be moving down the street into the newer apartments. They have full flooring so Charlie won't pee on everything which is a HUGE plus. I'm interested to see how the winters go on a balcony here vs in Denver. I'm sure they're going to be different but it'd be lovely if we could still use the patio in the winter. I'm also interested to see if the patio needs shoveling in the winter, becau...

Why is sleeping in so nice? I have slept in every night this week and it's been fabulous. I wish getting skinny was as easy as getting fat. I am so not motivated to not be fat. This week has been good so far. It's nice to catch up on sleep and i'm getting excited to go to toronto. I've been working really hard getting my house clean. It was jarring to be in Vanessa and my mom's house which were immaculate and then come home to mine that stinks of pee and needs a good vacuum. We will see what I can accomplish tonight so we come home to a super clean house on Sunday. Charlie is staying in Ellicotville with Matt's aunt Sue. He's having his own little vacation which I love to think about. I'm grateful for morning sunshine in overaircondintioned rooms. I'm grateful for strong coffee and morning gulps of water. I'm thankful that the wine bottles fit just right in our cabinet. I'm thankful that I can re-read the harry potter books with my niec...

I am so tired.  I need a vacation from my vacation. We got back from Nebraska yesterday at noon, and I went to bed at 9 pm. I slept like a rock up until Charlie woke me up because of a storm happening for pretty much most of the night. I feel bad I think Matt and I bickered about it a bit. Man I am tired.  This weekend was good. It was good to be around my family in the capacity we were. It was interesting to be around them for that long. Matt and I both agreed it was about a half a day too long. My sisters specifically were very much themselves this weekend. I don't know how they can revert to those antics so quickly and so intensely around those people. It takes me a long time to revert to the spineless anxiety riddled alcoholic I was around them.  Friday Matt, Gail, Lauren, John, Alex, Richie and Lindsay all showed up. We all arrived at different times. We had a pizza party for Lilly and Matt, John, Alex and I went out for a beer. That was a really good time. ...